Update 11-30-24

Dear readers of my unpopular blog;

The time has likely finally come for me to prepare packing soon for my Aftertimes - the new cycle of my life after first contact, if such happens. We will be two people at the initial CE5 event.

This is a time point of paramount importance in my life and I want to dedicate the last days of the first cycle of my life to allow a more ready state of mind.

If I am compromised, abducted against my wishes or worse during CE5, I will return as fast as possible directly, without reincarnating.

I shall give you all updates soon if allowed.

Take care,

Tay/Talia

Control

Obsession with your teen becoming pregnant or becoming a "bad girl" just like Jojo Siwa, that is very 1980's - yet some parents control their children from the start - drilling into their minds over and over 'don't be like this, don't do this, don't think that'.

In elementary school - it's always the parent that decides, not you. You aren't allowed to make your own decisions, you're too young. You can't show sadness or anger. You're expected to be a happy kid who goes to school, makes friends and remains unbothersome, blending it with everyone else, like a spy, unremarkable. And the day you tell on a teacher who verbally belittled or yelled at you, we're gonna make sure you know you're a brat for reporting her because we want you back in your spot.

"Crybaby! Crybaby!" say the other student, pointing at you, who see you weep on the bus in first grade because you had no seat. Everyone hates on you, you're the black sheep of the entire educational institution because you're weird. How could the world be so mean and cruel? "We're not laughing at you, we're laughing 'with' you!"

Your only best friend is worse than you and does questionable things you'd rather not do.

"Your bully is getting abused at home" is the only excuse you'll ever get.

Then you're made to be the problem, not them.

As you enter middle school, you aren't allowed to dress with shorts ending above knee length. Showing cleavage and mildly see-through clothing is a no. Surely that will repel away perverts, we think, otherwise she wants to be promiscuous. All you have to do is be a good high schooler. How dare she show an ounce of rebellion. Certainly she can't be depressed, she's just seeking attention and not acknowledging how people in third world nations have it worse. And she must be so naive, getting a 16-year-old boyfriend who will almost surely exploit her, badly influence her, or worse.

How dare she have mental health issues. We did everything we could for her. She's either faking it or seeking attention because she wants to avoid responsibilities and refuses to grow up.

"You're just young and confused, and falling for the agenda, you can't be trans!"

You then go on social media, and end up in an impasse and a tornado of self-embarrassment and CRINGE. And you have no one else to blame but either the trolls or yourself. Or God. Or Satan and the dark forces.

Everyone betrays you, abandons and rejects you, your self-esteem is at an all-time low and you are left with no other choice but awaken. Be careful, there's a rocky road of false awakenings out there.

A New Cycle of this Incarnation

Very close.

Extremely;

I am so close to the nexus.

I have almost fulfilled my amount for the CE5 trip!

If they come meet-and-greet us, I will:

- First of all, verify their agendas

- Ask about what my instructions are

- Ask how we can help certain people who need to leave Earth by extraction

- Request a temporary vacation home (or a "tour") and then return to Earth with them

- Ask them if I can post evidence

- Get a new avatar if this is reasonable

Did I just receive St Germain funding?

I'm on a path towards extreme change since 11/1 and synchronicities keep appearing like crazy since 3 to 4 days. It's almost out of control. I'm getting money out of unexpected sources: my own mother repaid me for the ankle braces I bought for my inward flexing feet, which tends to hurt when I walk a lot, and even the bank. I received, almost out of nowhere, 100$ from "credit memo" on an unexpected day recently, and this is before my "curatrice" (French word) even could send me support money for December which would also be 100$. I looked up what credit memo is, and it says it's when the bank owes you or gives you money. For something as vague as "credit memo", what if those are a part of the St Germain funds? And after I am cured of FND? And after my treatment team decided to wean me off custodianship? And after I met the CE5 person? Is this to compensate what my friend went through this month? Why is the timing so accurate? My bank already sent me exactly 100 when I opened my bank account because I have a Youth account with its benefits, so why would they send it a second time? They don't need to?? Also, when the "curatrice" sends me funds it doesn't say "credit memo" but something else related to the government of Quebec. I see no other way this can happen. It's what I see now: 100% chances of me fulfilling my missions! Hundreds everywhere!

The last time I received "St Germain funds" was in late 2020 when I got an "angel number" on the total of my SSDI check and I sensed it would happen the month prior. Later on, I told the channeler Lynne about this in a session and she intuited it was "given to me" by divine forces or whatever.

This is far better than the former state of feeling like nothing special happens or idleness, just the scope of having this sort of change in your life. My life does make sense again! If the LF had to give me funds for this for whatever motive, and THAT early, then you can guess why.

If you ever get St-Germain funds, chances are it will happen in a sort of way like this if you have a bank account. Either it will come through your disability check, through the bank like that or another way.

I am very close to energetically completing the first cycle of my incarnation and going to the next one.

Maya Social Centre

I had in mind a thought to create a nonprofit called the Maya Social Center, it's a multidisciplinary organization that primarly helps the cause of psychospiritual wellbeing/health, ET stuff, and housing.

It might as well be a portal or nexus for ETs to come into exorelations physically with small civilian groups at first and maybe expand later. 

I am preparing for the day to come.

I know this because they told me since age 16 that I was made for this project.

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Help with ETs in which way: Gather people to lobby for exorelations, within appropriate timing?

But also, I want to, as part of MSC, establish at first a "Psychospiritual Resources and Wellbeing Centre" or something like that. With both in-center and external services.

That centre may or may not become partly integrated within Quebec or Canada's healthcare resources network. After all, it is a nonprofit, or supposed to be.

In what axes does MSC help:

- Psychospiritual and mental wellbeing, both as integrated aspects;

- Soul-friendly housing and emergency shelter that is entirely free except for your own expenses, for marginalized demographics or minorities such as persons with disabilities, the LGBTQ+ or people who need a place to express their spiritual or identity freedoms; or schizophrenic conditions;

- An amalgamation of references to other spiritual wellness resources;

- Improve and help focus initiation on exorelations between extraterrestrials and humans;

- Energetically or physically helping Lightworkers, and other kinds of humans (starseeds etc) achieve certain goals or personal projects which may include off-planet exfiliation

Brain scan of a Lightworker

 One of my most important posts.

This brain scan of my head was done in 2023 to rule out causes behind my former FND.

Nothing sensitive in this info, just for neuroscientists to figure out stuff.

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Talia

How I imagine my new avatar.

Made with Artbreeder.

Comment

 My mother is 50 years of age, physically, and starting to wear down a little. Medically she sometimes has episodes and must be hospitalized, and I know part of this is that she is attacked due to past events I shall rather omit for now. DF love to attack the MOTHERS of lightworkers, or any female relative or friend, especially key ones, anytime they show Light potential. Males and enbies too, but differently and the females are attacked first. "How dare she give birth to this Lightworker!" Antimaternalism is their biggest thing. She can no longer do everything she used to do. It's impossible for her to drive my sisters 2 hours away to see one of our closer friends. So for this, I am now the only secondary anchor for 3 younger preadult/adult siblings, including my brother who is a nonspeaking autistic. As a "Lightworker" (god forbid, "bragging"!), but even if I'm one, I have responsibilities and duties that overlap in and out of that scene, including my own missions and life goals and projects, and Source has decided along with me that it is time for me to handle the big business and help my siblings in ways I can. I know brother is secured in a group home, and I can't have him under my wing because of the severity of his needs, but I can be there to assist my sisters who are transitioning into adulthood now. Brother and one sister are on the spectrum at different levels. I'm not, since I was hijacked when young to form an artificial autistic state but that's another thing entirely. To be fair, I don't read Cobra's comment section a whole lot because I just feel disinterested when reading.

This is why I can't just leave on a ship permanently until I finish my duties at a certain threshold because I have to be there for many people on Earth, and because of the nature of my mission.

No one can stop me.

Veterans Day

It's supposed to be pretty much a tributary thing. 

Communities, especially families, want to have something to help them cope and remember the lost or damaged lives of their fighters. The warrior instinct is in all of us. From a greater perspective, Veterans Day is not just about paying homage to your ancestors and forefathers who served and risked their lives to "protect the nation", but a way to honor the aspect of humanity that has always been resilient and frontlining its determined motivation to survive. Humans know by know that we should remember history to avoid repeating it. People in general are very sensitive when it comes to such matters, so it's best to just avoid contextualizing their legacy as if just "propaganda" in front of them. As for who controls the militia and the defense system of our world and what their interests truly are, that's another thing, even if interrelated. There is a lot of spiritual and emotional logic in these tributes and traditions, and I don't dismiss it as nothing; they are here for a reason, whether to mark a new cycle, or otherwise.

Sadly in this world there are nations who see the new generation, procreation and children as just assets to assure a family's wealth by working their asses off cramming at school for many years and get a high paying job, whether military-associated or not, and as supply for the government who seems to depend heavily on its people. Without a Peoples there is no Government. That's where I see a problem with it. No one should be conscripted and mandatorily drafted, or be cannon fodder. Ever. We are humans. Fighting should always be, a choice. The aesop remains as a consequence what is picked as the final decision, long term results are chosen by us and our alliance with the cosmos and nature. The problem you observe is a tendency for governments to lure new humans in their workforce in the form of a codependent relationship ("we can't sustain ourselves without you, so here's your life plan").

There's also a problem with obsessive over-militarization. We have learned a whole lot from the Orion wars and spiritual warfare. Always be on guard. Be prepared. Hence prepper psychology.

I'm still disappointed by the fire mentioned in the last post I made.