Earth is Not a School nor a Prison - it is an Exploited Supply Trade Farm and an Experiment

Earth is who she is, and we don't necessarily have a right to define what she wants. Even though I believe she wants the best for us, I doubt that this is unwarranted.

I mean, "school = prison", right?

Aside her needs and wants, this is how we experience her state of life now:

- An experience;

- An experiment (this is pretty much confirmed);

- Exploited and occupied land, by both terrestrial and galactic organizations, groups, and forces;

- A hub for interplanetary trade;

- A playing field, or sandbox of some sort.

Sayings such as "Earth is a school/prison" or game theory actually reinforce the mindset that our world is meant to be a rigged experience, and assumes we all have to play the same greater game or "theater".

Suffering isn't theater. It's real.

Furthermore, I get a subtle feeling that some higher consciousness sees us as compartmentalized classes. "Earth is the Planet of Exploited Resources and Experience of Limitation, Death and Duality". "Mars is the Realm of War and SSP Outposts". I heavily disagree that this is how it should be. I'm the type of person that wants to reinvent the wheel, so good luck with that.

This is why I want to almost resign from participating in such an experiment. Who asked me to live in an exploited planet turned into a trading and supply hub? Maybe I volunteered, but I actually no longer wish to involve myself into this self-destructive system.

That's how we are seen by dark forces; SUPPLY. This is also popular lingo in psychology for how narcissists and psychopaths see people. We are part of a large trading farm. Can't you see that? All your market chains, and money, financial systems? Why are they pushing digital currencies so much? It's because we are part of a MEGA HUGE TRADING AND EXPLOITATION INDUSTRY!

DNA, "adreno" and blood, as well as literal humans, have also served as "currency" too! And also, the exploitation serves its primary method of access as being, the mind. Do you see now why they want to implant chips in our brains? So we can all think the same way! And all of the information control, too.

And civilizational collapse and "Everyone Dies, The End" is not the solution. Complete meltdown and destabilization of all the systems in less than 5 years is NOT a solution. The solution is infiltration from within, which is why I am here now.

I don't want to be experimented upon for nefarious purposes!

ET codependency

During my life I've had moments where I felt like I was emotionally overreliant on the care and assistance of my ET friends and family.

It's not that they do not care, but it's important to remember that they are not our personal servants, they are GUIDES. They are here for certain reasons and are still people.

So all of this begging the ETs to take off off-world, needs a bit of recalibration of beliefs even if it can still occur.

Depression

I am no stranger to pain and suffering. Especially not ignorant to depression and wanting to leave this world.

Depression has been part of my life since childhood, in recursive cycles. They used to be situationally triggered, but now I get lows every single day at certain times.

My nervous system adjusted itself to believe that life is nearly pointless as long as I don't get freed from my current situation of "entrapment trauma". This trauma stems from the fact I was forced to attend self-contained classrooms, segregated, and then screwed over by social workers my entire adolescence, along with people attempting to exploit my freedom and restrict, decide everything for me; and let's not forget the many group homes I lived in and still live in. I don't like anything about these residential facilities at all.

Due to this a part of me begs to temporarily leave Earth. And it is now stronger than ever.

What's the point of living to 50 without beginning my real work? Waiting sempiternally? Without contact with ETs? I find myself incredibly fortunate to experience this now.

I want to be free. I want to experience reuniting with my real family, and coexist with ETs in a medbed center. Even though we're so close now, I still feel miles apart. Even if I adjust my mentality now and say "I AM FREE NOW", that's not enough.

I am already ready to go to the next step and I still am in this sorry group home. Hopefully that changes when the medbeds are released for Tier 4B, and I can finally turn into the person I want to be and forget about all of the rest.

ET Discrimination

How many times have I heard generalizations regarding extraterrestrial races? Quite a lot. Especially towards reptilians, Greys and the Borg, calling them "dark" or "evil".

Let's provide you with some context as to why I tend to disagree with such things:

Some races or species were forced to be, by hybridization programs, and especially the Borg. A few were forcefully incarnated in these bodies in a reincarnation loop that they could not leave, being stuck as children in adult android bodies.

Countless reptilians and draconians brainwashed and forced to follow orders from their lords, being profoundly brainwashed towards the negative polarity and face death if they try to escape or disobey, or worse.

Greys being hooked and plugged into an AI hivemind and made to incarnate.

And why do you think some of them go on Earth and incarnate or kill people? To just pleasurably see them suffer? They do this because they don't have a choice.

They did not want this initially. They were forced and their consciouness hooked.

This isn't a defense of bad behavior nor a message that you should lower your guard, but a reality check. The harm being done by these people 

Problems with the Educational System

The situation of disability segregation at schools is so deep here that I got myself invited to an alternative school convention in 2023 as a guest after I contacted the hosts about my projects, and seized the opportunity to have a group of parents sit down and talk about this subject matter.

Schools in North America like to silo students into arbitrary categories and classrooms when it comes to special education. If it works for a certain group of peole, they can enforce it onto exponentially larger groups until we can no longer tell the difference. This normative mechaniusm is inherently socially harmful.

Someone mentioned to me:

"There are a lot of systems that like to shortcut the learning curve of teaching and individual, by forcing everyone into categories that appeal to arbitrary logic. If it's good for a set number of people, we can force it onto a larger and larger group. If you take the category of what they call, high functioning. Those are the people that theoretically should be thriving under the normalized condition. If they are high functioning like the system says, there should be statistically high amount of people thriving in society within that group. 

But, many of the people amongst the high functioning category, are not doing so well under a pedagogy that's supposed to fit the average person. If the average person isn't thriving in what's designed for their success, that exemplifies the notion that not everyone learns the same in both autistic and non-autistic spectrums. There are intersections, where many of the same things can be understood by a ride range of people. But as the mind focuses, we find aspects of nature that are different within the fabric of unity. Same availability of notes, different compositions and configurations. As above, so below - similar to the periodic table in this way, multiple repeating units giving rise to a depth of oneness. 

In an ideal pedagogy, individuals are assessed, examined, listened to. Then paired into a classroom or group that compliments the strengths and weaknesses of both students and teacher. The progress of learning is then also assessed, to identify teaching techniques that were successful, and then remove those that weren't. Which is all very capable under the current technology we have, just again underutilized in favor of what keeps corporations pumping"

So I gather a few elements from this. If you are of "good functioning" and aren't the type to be severely challenged, you still eat dirt because the system tends to give all the wrong attention to the mildest cases and neglects the most severe ones.

You can't compare apples and blueberries. And when you are under the age to quit school without legal repercussions (here in Quebec it's 16), you don't have much choice in where they put you - so you have to "deal with it", per se.

People think accommodations is giving extra time, giving extra breaks, having an audio recorder to take notes, etc. but it goes even deeper than this equation. When was the last time you wished you were or had studied at a Montessori school? Because of my byronic traits I tend to withdraw on myself and break down when I don't have very specific environmental thriving conditions, like a fragile plant.

Self-advocacy is so important, even though some may struggle at it.

We need to develop a more personalized and adaptive system that nurtures and encourages human diversity of experience. How about using various sensory modalities to teach, and semi-unstructured learning? This should become more integrated into public education.

Update

I was hospitalized for 5 days last week. I'm better now.

God refused to let me pass in my sleep so now I have to deal with continuing my life here.

Still, I find myself in a sort of emotional and perceptual state where everything sucks.

Not having what I need sucks.

Boredom sucks.

Everything sucks.

My Truth About Being a Nexus

Sending out my compassion to people evacuated and affected by the LA fires.

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I often find myself confronted by being a nexus and transmuter. If you ever wanted to be a sort of compression sponge for collective energy, let me tell you that you should think twice about this desire of yours. 

What adds further to this behemoth is that I heal souls.

Because of an implanting incident that occurred a few years ago, my emotions have become almost irreversibly more numb. I cannot feel most positive emotions as intensively as I used to. It's almost too dead silent sometimes in here.

While this spares me from some of the worst consequences and effects of having the energetic configuration I hold, I cannot help myself but say that I still experience a rapid cycle of depression and happiness (not mania). I've even wondered whether I am unipolar. My guides tell me I'm not.

There are entire groups of Lightworkers and starseeds that I feel what they live in general on a subconscious level. I am connected to their grid, on some levels, and it is quite painful emotionally and spiritually. Because of this, I went more than once to the ER or called a crisis center. 

I don't transmute for all beings on Earth. That's not possible. But only some groups, notably 5D+ beings and lightworkers.

I cannot change this.

There are at least three souls I became enough familiarized with, that I do this role with; not someone known on Blogspot though. Others come and go through my life, but I can't help but simply unintentionally transmute for them (and my own traumas) :(

However, it does help me to see that they're doing alright. And don't worry about my situation, please.

On average I feel a low almost everyday. Everyday, there is a time period where I drop in frequency and experience hopelessness, homesickness, despair, or intense sadness. I am feeling this right now. Those feelings are very, very intense in the groups I transmute for. I literally hold these starseeds/lightworker groups together away from reaching a negative ultimatum and if I wasn't there, many would die.

And you know what happened once? Some kind of shattering of my soul family grid! It will take a while to fully recover from that.

The problem with me isn't me. I am not suppressing my true self; it's my environment. I already am quite geared up, but I was trapped in an unsuitable environment, such as group homes, for an extremely long time. When I am trapped there I can't express my potential as much as I want. There needs to be a trigger, a step forward that will propulse me into full potentiality.

What's more, entities fight for my attention and I have to carefully tread on a thin line everytime I try telepathy.

In the right environment, I can be very powerful. I am not very limited except by the very environmental prison that surrounds me. It doesn't matter that I manifested this; I need to get out of there now - THIS YEAR IN 2025. It got so bad that I disclosed info about my mission to my case manager, who is also a social worker, and the psychologist at the residence - and they reacted well.

Some people have their utmost priority being having the right body. My top priotity at the moment is moving to the right environment, socially and physically. And yes, that will include extraterrestrials.

I can't stand it anymore

Every so often, I have a moment in my life where I reach breaking point. The velocity of the cycle at which I have this effect on me accelerates exponentially as time goes by. As of now, I would be tempted to describe these as a sort of mixture of extreme bereavement that I am not with my ET family yet, and most of all, a very strong urge to be free; the ET part is there since 2 or 3 years, and the freedom part has always been the core of the crises.

When this happens, I feel as if I'm being deprived of what my soul needs and wants for too long. This is actually a recurring familial trauma; my sisters were put in foster care twice, where they were neglected the first time. They had to wait two or three long, agonizing years to finally be home and had long-standing psychological sequelae.

As I reflect upon this phenomena, I now realize that me and my siblings are in a similar boat. Our parents cannot meet the entirety of what we need, because spiritually we also have a need for self-actualization that needs basically, Source/God, to fulfill itself. 

Besides, there has been a pattern of neglect and squalor in my family's household for several years, which is now done for after my family moved again. Yes, I once lived in squalor. My bedroom was a complete disaster and my bed was left broken, and so was my disjointed window, which fell down 2 stories once and could literally have landed on someone, or a car, but out of divine grace, did not. Our former feline friend almost died from starvation at one point. My mother was living in severe depression and did nothing but sleep all day long. This made me leave the home permanently with adult social services and hospital support.

Rain fell through my room and permakilled one of my old computers. I would gladly have reported all of this to CPS because of my siblings, however, they were all so scared of this group, because they already had sabotaged our lives. At the same time, my mother was constantly asking me for money sucking it out of my disability check, so I had to be put under a custodian who had the power to control all of my finances for a few years. By next month I will regain the right to use it all, but I cannot sign a lease on my own just yet.

As souls, we don't have parents. We are sovereign.

And also count in my absent father who literally abandoned us all after being caught doing more than a decade-long fraud., although he already had almost no fatherly involvement with us beforehand. My brother, who is almost 21 now, is permanently institutionalized in group homes since the age of five, because of his nonverbal autism and severe learning disabilities.

Add to this some of my real-life friends, who seem to have been trapped in a cycle of absenteeism from me or just always being prevented from seeing me in person.

I'm long out of that place of neglect, and I have new, better socioeconomic situations coming up, however, it is simply put ------- "filler" meant to help me survive here for now.

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I don't know exactly what the global energy is influencing my thinking, but know that I am a fallible soul like you and I can be prone to cracking wide open, and internally struggling with feeling abandoned.

The yogi child, always waiting for something, someone, who seems to never arrive - until she decides to flip the switch and run off.

Meditation for Exiters

Breathe in,

Breathe out.

Imagine yourself surrounded by the ray color of your choice, can be one or multiple, and the divinity Hermes, the god of travel.

Invoke all of your preferred angelics, and ascended masters.

And most of all, ask for your soul family to step forward.

"I, _______, declare my intention to visit outer space (or go home) physically while in this present lifetime, within the closest possible divine timing. I judge that this is the best option for me at this present moment"

Say whether you want it temporarily or permanently.

Insist that you want this to happen while you are still alive in the flesh, if suits you.

Repeat 3 times.

After the triple statement, tell them about how you feel, tell them everything you can say.

Now, imagine yourself (and maybe also others who desire the same thing) being exfiltrated. Send all of the signals of your desire towards Source, and your guides. Flood everything with love. Be careful not to cause too much resistance. Remain open to what they say.

You can also talk with them and see the options if doable.

Focus on the intention until you feel that you are done with the meditation.

A Suggestion on the Preservation of Starseed Heritage, Identity and Culture

Alike the laws protecting Indigenous cultural knowledge, identity, traditions and rituals as intellectual property,

"Starseed" denotes any human being on Earth who has either spiritual, earthly or bio-spiritual ancestry primarily related to extraterrestrial groups who settled on Earth at any point, regardless of their identity and awareness of their bloodline.

"Starseed cultures" denotes all ideas, patents, technologies, intellectual property, energetic rituals, and other traditions and customs transmitted intergenerationally from the ancestors of humans who have a starseed bloodline, shared with humans regardless of their genetic status.

"Starseed identity" denotes all gestalts of identity within Starseed groups.

"Blood quantum" is not needed in order for this protection to serve someone as doing so would be discriminatory and lead to consequences such as unfair treatment due to disclosure of genetic links with certain bloodlines. For instance, if someone is 1/2 or 1/4 "starseed", remains irrelevant - what is relevant is the preservation of the culture amongst humans, starseed or not.

This proposition suggests:

- That groups of power and the cabal cease and desist from stealing Starseed culture, identities, intellectual property, such as their traditions, patents, customs, and oral history; and acting detrimentally towards the rights of Starseeds

- That groups in power cannot exploit Starseed identities or cultures, or Starseeds' energy for personal gain;

- That groups in power cannot use Starseed identities, Starseed culture or Starseeds without the collective consent of Starseeds themselves;

- That technologies such as cellphones, and any technologies originating from the consciousness of Starseeds and Starseed cultures, remain entitled and tributary to their original thinkers, inventors or creator, and that these patents cannot be stolen without explicit permission from Starseeds.

- That any group or person cannot distort Starseed culture or Starseed identity for fulfilling a personal agenda;

- That any group or person cannot exploit Starseed DNA and lineage without consent of Starseeds, and this includes hybridization programs;

This suggestion is proposed to the Divine and respective groups aiming to support the Divine cause.

Self-care move!

I am now putting unreliable, unreciprocal and low availability "friends" at a lower priority in my personal life.

If you are the kind of person who wants to befriend me; yet, only replies to me messages a week later, who leaves me on read constantly without saying much, makes me always have to be the one to reach out first, always cancels meetup plans, sorry but I no longer have interest in wasting my time. You're going to only hear from me occasionally now. 

I am done with social irresponsibility and I'm pissed. It makes me feel so lonely and ignored.

Those who are my friends, I have a few basic expectations and one is that they care to reach out consistently and allow space for the friendship to grow.

And that there is a strong reciprocity.

I hate one-sided relationships. So much.

My only "priority" friend right now is a lady named Ellie. I say friend because I leave a year of time before I consider someone an actual friend.

Naming the Elephant in the Room

The contactee community is collapsing.

I'd like to briefly bring to light the absolute circlejerk that are the worrisomely antagonistic relationships between the Taygetan contactees and ex-contactees, Elena Danaan and her associates, Kabamur, Megan Rose and many many others. And yes, that also includes Allies of Humanity.

There are some things that most of them have in common:

- They have been dragged or involved in massive discrediting conflicts (infowars)

- They have barely admitted to saying falsehoods (or very rarely)

- Their "intel egos" and naivety are not in check (I don't care if you're Gosia, Danaan, or anyone else, I still stand to that)

- All of them have profited off the money of Lightworkers and followers, and that includes the Swaruu contact which could be actually the SSP/CIA you're giving money to! I don't care who created the elaborate Minecraft content!

- All of them have promoted psyops, such as Enki's return or supposed communications with Taygetans (I still stand by that, no matter what you may think, please prove me wrong)

Please do the research. Please. I don't have to explain myself.

Forget about all of them. Just for a moment there.

The key is you.

YOU are the ones who have put all of your attention into these figures.

YOU are the ones who allowed them to flourish, gave them your energy, time and money,

keeping your heads glued to a PC or phone watching their webinars and videos,

going to various conventions,

and as for the group moderators, deleting comments challenging their narratives, each of them.

The Disclosure and contactee communities are sinking because of YOUR attention and YOUR own desperate need for closure and truth, which was gravely exploited from all sides because YOU believed THEM and could not form your own opinion because you lacked data so scarcely.

I don't care if Cobra is so far one of the few I've seen who seems to have not been through all of this circlejerk.

Stop selling your soul to the content of these "emissaries" and tap into Source by yourselves NOW!

"Alternative media", my ASS!

Update 11-30-24

Dear readers of my unpopular blog;

The time has likely finally come for me to prepare packing soon for my Aftertimes - the new cycle of my life after first contact, if such happens. We will be two people at the initial CE5 event.

This is a time point of paramount importance in my life and I want to dedicate the last days of the first cycle of my life to allow a more ready state of mind.

If I am compromised, abducted against my wishes or worse during CE5, I will return as fast as possible directly, without reincarnating.

I shall give you all updates soon if allowed.

Take care,

Tay/Talia